This is first time i do long post, if u don't feel read it just get the hell out!!
The first encounter i with Drawing, it's from 13 Years Ago, when i'm still 7. My very first comic (or manga in this case) is Dragon Ball. From there, i had some feeling that somehow i find something from it. Then it continue to junior high school when i'm meet with my friend with exceptional drawing skill. Both of us begin to draw our very first comic based on story of 3 kingdom. Compared to him my drawing is complete crap, maybe that's the reason this project is stop but i'm not dissapointed yet.
Moving on to high School, again i meet another person with exceptional drawing skill to top it of that person is female, and beautiful in some way (both her appearance and drawing not mean to be racist though). Her style exceptionally good, wayyy too gooddd!! And again when i compare her drawing with mine, well like dinosaur dung and sky, my drawing is complete crap! But i never give up, i keep drawing, playing game, and drawing.
Now i'm 20 years old, still love drawing, and i had burning passion for anything like Manga, West Comic, Anime, Action Movie and Game. Do am i otaku?? I Don't give a care!! But what i do want to say is my life itself! My dream is i want to be ILLUSTRATOR! Be it manga, West Comic, or Game. But day by day this dream keep fading away. My Parent told me i'm like a child, they said i not to throw that stuff! They give me supplement that i don't even want at first place, they told me that will help me in the future.
Somehow i feel really confuse, don't wanna make bad my dad and mom but I had a dream. I read comic from Shimamoto Kazuhiko, and he is my favorite mangaka, he make comic with passion like burning fire! I Want to be like him, had Passion!! I WANT TO BE LIKE SHIMAMOTO-SENSEI!! but why everything i do is complete hopeless while each time i gradually keep further away from my dream, I DON'T WANT TO BE COMPANY WORKER, SALARY MAN, MANAGER, or Any JOB IN THAT LINE! I WANT TO BE GOD DAMN ILLUSTRATOR!!!!
MOST people probably will laugh, saying that i'm too childish, and my parent when see this will feel ashamed, but once again i want to have passionate job, and only passionate job i can find is be a god damn Illustrator. Thanks for hearing my bitching!